雨天

心在淌血
我不是那种人
我没有被朋友嗦摆
我只是个普通的女子
我没你想象中那么坚强
我也需要被人
疼
爱
关心
珍惜
保护
我是想好好才做这样决定的
如果我是听朋友说的话
早在一年前就作决定这个决定了
不必等到今天才有决心
其实我也顾虑了很多
我曾经给你很多次机会了
但
你有珍惜过吗？？
你有认真看过我一眼吗？？
因为在你心里已经认定了我不能失去你
但
你错了
没有了你我也会活得好好的
可能只需要些时间去治疗而已
也许现在的心又点痛
但我一定能克服一切

因为我不能让现在的 “他” 对我失望
我也不想让真心对我的 “他” 感到伤心...难过

Beautiful Day

yesterday shopping with my babe at 1U ~
before go there accompany babe went to wash car
what!!! the weather is super hot!! sweat!

[ inside babe's car ~ he was talking on phone >< ]

when we reach there
the first thing is to find a restaurant to sit down
both of us also felt freaking hungry like hell la
haha ~ sop sop

[ waiting my meal ~ gain time...haha ]

after that we plan to watch [ coming soon ]
actually the mood was happy
cause we thought is a horror movie
who after watch sure 100% regret
felt sleepy in the cinema ~ shit movie!!!
the same scenario in the movie

after movie we were take dinner at The Curve
" The Apartment "
good environment


Camwhored session here
GOGOGO!!!

[ His was attack on me ]

[ he call me attack on him ~ haha ]

[ Babe Jacken X Babe Yan in the Apartment ]

[ our cocktail ~ Good!! ]

[ salad ~ actually is not bad laa dear ]

[ Baked fish ]

[ lazy ~ felt wanna sleep on the bed ]

[ my dear was blur blur already ]

Babe ~

I Love You
I Hear You
From the sincere

[ SNIPER ]

Friday X 24/4/2009

finally my Babe J back form outstation on yesterday
Babe Y misssss you so muchhhhhh
he was pick me up and went to "Look Out Point" take dinner
after dinner we were plan to " Leisure Mall " watch movie!

[ SNIPER...Edison was so cool ~ love him ]

actually this movie have a bit stuffy la....
but...have Edison ma ~ haha!! handsome handsome!!
Worth watching!

and thank you babe you bought me a pillow ~
haha..cause I always complain of his car have no pillow
sei sak nei ^^ mauckssssssssss

after movie have to eat supper at " Cafe house "
he force me to eat! so full la dear ~ beh tahan ~
I know that you care about me
but your babe me wanna diet la ><

[ haha..My Babe in the house ~ ]

coincidentally ~ sometimes we were so telepathy
with you there is no pressure, i feel very at ease
i like this feel...thank you babe ~

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Thursday X 23/4/2009

be shopping queen on today! haha
Jacqueline Yong be my Human ATM ~ thanks dear
Jac and me went to Bangsar shopping on this afternoon
wakao..................
Mooie!!
Moca!!
Gossip!!
somemore ~ bla bla bla
all boutique here...i'm Going Crazy

[ Jac and Yan in the fitting room ]

when night our gang were yam cha at "steven corner" again
haha...he was be our "HOT TOPIC" again!
we were seem like so bad ~ but no choice la ~
bryan teach us ones ~

YO! WE ARE FRIENDS MA!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

simple days

just now yam cha with my high school friends at station1 again ~
they say wan celebrate to me...
....secret recipe again ~ indulgent again?? sweat !!
this few day really eat cake eat until wanna vomit
.........

really long time did'nt meet them jor ~
misssssss them so so so much!
i think almost around 1 year no meet already
all also change a lot ~ but 1 things that is not change is all also so "38"
haha ~any way....
thanks you all celebrate to me ya
chu ya ^^ maucksssss

[ 20 years old ]

Tuesday ^^ 21/04/2009

HaPpY BirThdAy To mE
" YanYan@Chan Yuen Eng "

Today is my 20 yrs old birthday ~haha
wahhh ~ really 20 yrs old already ~ really felt old jor
big girl la ~ can't be childish any more ~ SAD lolllll

this few days freaking tired ~
keep go out celebrate and do revision..cuz exam lo
so bad luck la...1st year have exam and got class on my birthday day

thanks my all lovely classmate and my lecture mummy Ms.Julynn
I LOVE YOU ALL
muacksssssssssssSSSSSSsssssssss
cuz they celebrate today me in the class

[ my face >< ]

[ my Terrimisu cake...delicious ]

really felt so touch hereeeeee ^^

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Monday ^^ 20/04/2009

thanks all my girlssss countdown my birthday to me ~
this night we went to " Fan OK " take dinner
but suddenly felt so bored at there laa
and the shop will close on 12am
wow ~ so early close!!!!!
GOGOGO ~ change place!!!! station1

my 20 yrs old birthday wow~
sure take a lot of pic la~

" FAN OK "
[ Worm and Me ><]

[ thanks my babe girlsssss ]

[ Lou Ye and Me ]


" STATION ONE "
[ 1...2...3...CheersssSSsssss ]

[ hug hug my dear^^ ]

[ make 3 wish ~ so greedy ]

[ Oh my godddd ~ dirty face ]


thanks my all babe girlss and boyss
hug hug my all dear
ThankS Bibi Yong, Sharry Chin, Carmen, Ah San, Worm, Tracy,Lou Yee and Karwai

Muacksssss

[ Poppy Night ]

wow! last Saturday were celebrate my Birthday at Poppy
Haha ~ GOGOGOGO!
Love my girlssssss and boyssss so much!! thanks you all ya!
time was so rush! i have no time to prepare ~ so makeup in my Babe's car
so dark la ~ hard to makeup but in the end i was done it la!!

Before going keep take pic
haha ~ we were going CRAZY!
My babe also beh tahan us ~ kakakz

[ where my Babe's half face?? ]

[ Tracy and Me in the car ]

[ My lovely Worm and Me ]

[ My Dear Jacqueline & Me ~ Maucksss ]

[ Love my grilsssss ~ Sharry at home revision >< ]


[ meet my high school's friend at there ~ Evelyn and Me ]

[ Wow! coincidentally ~ meet my net friend at there and he was birthday the same day with me also! ]

[ Eveybody ~ push your hand up...put your hand... ~ ]

[ receive my early birthday kisss from my dear JAC ~ thank you^^ ]

[ She was drunk ~ em dim ya! ]

[ My Babe Jacken and Me ]

haha ~ really felt so happy on that night
really thanks to all celebrate to me
felt so touch here ~

I LOVE YOU GUYS

MaucksssssssSSSsss

曾经有人跟我说过

B : yan...这种男子要不要也罢啦？
他都不会珍惜你~丢掉他吧
何必弄到自己这样了？ 想清楚点啦...不值得的
问你自己, 他是你的未来吗？ 你认为他会带给你幸福吗？
越迟放手只会越难放而已, 他只是你生命中的一个过客而已！

S : 是咯 yan...要他来做么啦 ~ 丢掉他吧
enjoy single life ~

J : yan...你真的认真想清楚一点吧, 其实你心里已经知道答案了的..
只是你不去面对而已...不要再逃避了! 为何不让自己过得好一点呢？
你身边每一个朋友都是为你好的....从前年我已经劝你劝到今天了
他真的不值得你哭....为什么要继续 hurt 自己呢？
甚至如果你离开他 ~ 也许他不会为你流一滴眼泪的
你确定他真的是你要的吗？
拍拖时候都这样了....怎样去想象以后？？
你有多少个4年来被他浪费呢？ 是你才忍受得住他而已！

J : dear ~ 放弃他啦....他会是你要的吗？我曾经跟自己说过..
如果我男朋友有一点对我不好的话...我都会重新考虑

C : yan...如果我是你...我一早就丢掉了！

T : diu ~ 这些男子要来做么啦？？4 年 jek嘛...
他帅又不是帅过人！ 来 ~ 我带你出去pou~

W : 是咯yan...我们阔出去 ~ 世界还有很多棵树的

哥 : yan....要他来做么啦？

aixsz

felt suffer now!! my stomach ~ who can help me??
really felt regret ~ drunk made people suffer and tired ~
my stomach seem like empty but when i eating felt wanna vomit!
i hate this feeling! Plssssss la...i bag you ~
stay away from ME!
OK??

i'm so bad luck laa...exam is coming soon!!
and exam that day on my birthday that day! 0421
wahhhh....why???
and i really no mood to study laa ~
today is Friday....i haven start my revision and assignment!
Monday need to pass up!
aisx....what i doing there???
dream???
on line??
high tea??
sleep??
play??
drama???
miss someone??
or wait someone call??

[ Emo Night ]

yesterday went to Pavillian with Bi and Sharry....

today no class....nothing to do at home too
Hmm..they leave me alone because actually they plan to buy my birthday present on today
no choice la...is i want follow them out geh
after that we take our dinner at "tian yuan steamboat"
really long time did not eat already ~ SATISFACTION!!

when i reach home fast fast dress up! so rush la girls!!!
cause Tracy keep ask me go her home!!!
actually they plan to Zouk ones...but cant go inside...
so...change to Quattro ~

[ Chong X Me...waiting Tracy's boy come ]

[ Chong X Tracy X Yan ]

recently i so sad..normally i wont go club ones
but stay at home only will made myself think a lot, crying, emo and suffer only
dunno why....a lot of people also cant believe i seldom go club
why leh??? may be you all give my face to deceived already lox..

[ Drink a lot lox ]

[ CheerssssssSSss!!! ]

[ Inside the Winter Season ]

i drink too much la ~ already drunk
the whole night only keep crying, scream and vomit
i was so blur and dizzy la ~ wing wing dei
walk also cant in a straight line
feel so paise...i lost control
my heart is bleeding...
i keep ask myself...why??
why he bother me??
why he do not care me??
did i do something wrong??
lucky Tracy and Chong here...really thanks a lot ya...
I love euuu my dear
u all so care me, keep console me...i feel so touch!!

whole night also cant sleep because of stomach-ache
vomit until this morning 7am....Non-stop
super suffer!! super pain!!!!
shit !! i promise myself ....no next time!